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 I can't tell the amounts of time I have felt that I should have stopped at bachelors, should have taken an ordinary job, and stayed happy where I was, I mean many of my friends did that and they seem well to me. the thought of masters was so lucrative that I couldn't resist and I really wanted to study, no lie! 

I didn't know what but, I wanted to study, become smarter, and know the world from a different perspective. Or maybe I just wanted to be a student for some more time. I can't pinpoint what made me prepare for the entrance exam and tick all those answers.

Of course, I could put it down to destiny or fate but honestly, there was no drive that got me here, only inertia. Ever since my 10th, the day I entered the coaching class for 11th and 12th, I've been in inertia, a simple yet powerful force of inertia. things just happened in the meanwhile, you attended lectures, suddenly the timetable for exams appeared and you focused all your energy on mugging up the next sentence because the truth is you have stopped asking questions and trying to understand things long back.

So this goes and you land in your bachelors where you finally get some time to do your own thing, but unfortunately, you get so busy you forget to actually plan your future, by the last year you wake up and ask all your friends and their friends, seniors and super seniors, about how to go.

Some satisfactory answers, and some unsatisfactory, you realize everyone around you is in inertia. Running for the next piece of cheese. Somehow you explain this to yourself and try to figure out why are people doing things they don't know why they're doing. Forget about the passion or even the want, I just want to know the reason.

The only possible answer could be that this seems the perfect next step. I heard it from someone, I wanna be like someone or a great one, this is what I want my life to be, the reasons could be many but purpose? not that much.

When I sit to study for my post-graduate and don't understand what I'm reading, I ask myself, should I have stopped at graduation? Is this a mistake? How simple my life would have been if I just took a job! Ya a 9-5 to with decent income could be hostile but look at me! I will be doing the same perhaps a few months later than my peers and with a better set of income but moreover, the situation doesn't change! only gets postponed.

On the other hand, if I had opted for a job, who could guarantee the situation would be better? Maybe its just a learning curve and I will get over it. Hope for the best.

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